I’m just so freakin’ tired of this roller coaster I’m on. I wish I could really just disappear. I serve no function. I feel just like a waste of space. So I’m going to rant to a random social media in which I have few followers. Because that way I can get it out of my mind without getting it out. It’s kinda like I got it out though. I just really wish I could be happy like I used to be. ALONE! Didn’t need anybody but family. Now I need alone time and then people. I don’t understand it and it frustrates me. I wish I didn’t shut my eyes to the fact that my best friend at the moment couldn’t care less about hanging with me. I continue to delude myself into thinking people actually would want to spend any time with me. Ha! I want to go to bed! I have to bowl. =[
It’s a skillet kind of night… I’m about done with trying… Just want to be completely finished. Fade from existence… No one cares anyway. I miss best friend. Pray for Ryan.
I know you’re lost and drifting, but the clouds are lifting, don’t give up you have somewhere to turn, I’ll be your candle on the water, till every wave is warm and bright, my soul is there beside you, let this candle guide you… I’ll paint a ray of hope around you circling in the air guided by a prayer. 😢
Hero worship, bought with a kiss and an extravagant gift… Begone bitch!
Well, last night I think I really felt what I knew for sure I really do have a best friend I can count on. When someone comes to Murfreesboro to give you a ride home at 1 am when even your own family ignores you then that’s someone to be proud of. I’ve been so wishy washy lately and bitchy, but now I truly feel I don’t need to worry as much. I feel content and I feel like I’m getting back as much as I put in. I was all along and just took it for granted. I just wish I could somehow make my best friend’s day even brighter =\
Your Merlin is about to turn Morgana if you don’t straighten out!
Me is saddened… It forgot about me and completely ignored me after all my preparation…
It’s not like I didn’t spend the morning cleaning house then making sure there was a little bloody food in the house and you decide to change your bloody mind and leave me sitting here like a damn fool waiting on nothing to fucking happen and getting my damn hopes up… I swear sometimes it does seem like you just take pity on me because I’m a big of an outcast. Well if that’s all then bloody well go drown. I look up to you and you do shit like this and I get all bent out of shape because I’m so worried you’ll be like the other asshole and you do nothing to allay those fears and all I bloody well wang is for you to hang for a minute =[